Amazing

It is crazy how 2 days can change your outlook on things.  But that is just what I was saying in my previous post. I hit a bad day or two go absolutley off the charts. Hit the bottom, then ok here we are two days later and I feel great. Will it last a 2 more days? Will it last a week or 2? I want it to last so much longer. Forver would be nice. :-) Unrealistic, nah I don't think so at least it is a goal to work toward.
I have not been able to get enough of my husband and kids these last 2 days. I want to be with them every moment hold them and talk to them. Even though yesterday after school I thought I could possibly kill my 11yo, she has her first speech do that is mandatory and she is freaking out. She ahs known about since before Christmas. Has she done any of it? No. When is it due? Tomorrow. She did start it weeks ago then quit. We were also out ALL last week because of weather. We live in the south never get snow. But she did not even try to do any of it during that time. Now the day before its due, freakin out. She started out writing out about the dog, then thought about the rainforests, then basketball. But yesterday she was under the conclusion that she knows nothing about anything. Or at least not enough to speak for at least 2 to 3 minutes about it. How absurd is that when kids can have a conversation about nothing and everything that can last all day long?
I understand her pain. I hated doing speeches or anything that had to do with getting in front of anyone. And writing comes easy for me whether a speech or just nothing. I am such a procrastinator and I see some of that in her when it comes to certain things. I say she, she, she didn't do anything about the speech. But I am the mother here and should have reminded her and helped more with it over the snow break.
On top of this we have a basketball game tonight(we have 3 a week between 2 of my girls, one cheers the other plays) and both have practice once to twice a week. Also this week we have to go to the Community College where they both get to practice and perform the college students on Saturday. And then have to be at their school on Sunday for sports pictures, yes I said Sunday I think thats weird. Sometime these next 2 weeks they have to fit in and reschedule all the games we missed last week due to snow plus tournaments.
I say all of this, but I love all the chaos and it keeps me going. I love it so much I am not sure what we will due with our time after basketball season. But it is also what knocks me to the ground. I have got to find a balance. Anyone have any ideas how to find the balance? Is it a helpless cause or will I finally get there after my kids are grown and don't need me anymore?